Sunday, March 15, 2009

When the future is uncertain...

I spend more time talking to my Jesus. This past month has brought many challenges. In February our church started a "One month to live" challenge and I didn't think much of it. I try to live my life with the end in mind. Not in a morbid way just trying to keep an eternal perspective.
We lived with a lot of uncertainty for many years and were really enjoying the predictable life we were blessed to have for the past year(ish). I finally felt things were calm enough for me to go to school. The first week of our "One month to live" challenge we found out Eric does not have a contract for next school year. The school has had to make some cuts to the budget and he is the new guy in the english dept. When Eric first told me I wasn't worried because we will still have a paycheck thru August. And God has always provided work for him. That gave him 6 months to find a job. He is looking and we are willing to move. It has been about a month since we got the news and it is a daily challenge for me to keep a positive outlook. Not that I doubt he will find a job, I just have a hard time waiting to find out what and where it will be.
The thing that is hardest about moving is having to leave Luke and Alex (the neighbor kid). I believe God has put us in their lives for a purpose and it is hard to be ok with leaving them.
I know we are not alone in this valley and there is a plan for us.
The other thing we have done during the "One month to live" challenge is to quit our small group. I know it seems like a bad idea but it is where God is leading us. We have two young couples in our life that we love so much. We have talked about inviting them to start a small group with us. We decided that if we only had one month to live we would want to invest our time and energy in helping them grow their marriages. So that is what we have done. No regrets! We love our old small group and we enjoyed our time with them.
If you read this post please take a moment to pray for our family, we really need it right now.

1 comment:

Mommy Wishdom said...

I will keep y'all in my prayers. There is a reason for everything....sometimes you dont get to find out the "why" til later, but it's always there.