Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Unexpected realizations
I have been so challenged since school started. I really thought I wasn't school smart. I was having panic attacks for the first two weeks. Things are getting better but it is an everyday battle with myself to keep going. Eric and I have had a lot of conversations about why I hate school. I have come to the conclusion that I am a perfectionist. Not a perfectionist like I always think of it. I have always seen it as a negative thing. As I am typing this I see that I can't stand for things to be mispelled or improper. I never thought about that. Anyway, school is a journey that is bringing by face to face with myself and the jury is out of what I think of me. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I think I have already done some of the most important things in life. Mom, wife, friend. Now I get to learn to use the brain God gave me and not be afraid to be that part of who I was created to be.
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I prayed for girlfriends once. The kind of die hard, stop what she's doing, be my emergency contact person that you are to me and my family. I LOVE WHAT HAS MADE YOU. Wife and mother are at the TOP and friend is extra bonus. You rock! You can not do all of that with out serious brain power. I know you have it, because I have called needing it =)
I know you must feel a calling to go to school. More power to you (and I will be praying for you) but you have been the hands and feet of Jesus, our initial calling.
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